Betty's thoughts

4/10/2006 I found the following thoughts today whie cleaning out the garage and deciding which books could be thrown away. One was a diary which had not entries, but these words were written in Betty’s hand. I had inscribed a date on them as written in June 1957. This would be just after twins were born 3 months prematurly and survived less than 24 hours.


“We give friendship, love, we are helpful; we laugh with others and are happy. But when God’s plan of things enters our life in what to me are the most dramatic ways, how do we feel? Friends & relations rejoice and who is prouder than poppa at the birth of a child? Momma wonders about the miracle in which she has just had the leading role. Those of us who have been privileged to have children know that if we choose we can escape from most of the unpleasantness. Tho’ I wonder if we haven’t really cheated our-selves of the full impact when we choose to escape from God’s plan for this part of our life. But, no matter, how many of us remember heartache, sorrow and loneliness which we experience? We seem to be wrung of all emotions and human feeling. Doubts and fears arise. This is God’s plan also. In there not somewhere in his plan an intangible something He gives us after the miracle has passed? One miracle brings us untold happiness, the other untold sorrow, but both are God’s plan. If we ask him He gives to us as much faith and courage to accept them both gracefully. Not that we are not to sorrow , but not as they who have no hope. Help us not to forget the experiences with a sweet sorrow. Help us to remember those expressions of faith and courage which we expressed. Help us to bear under the words of encouragement that we have planned to say to others. Help us when the miracles of God are most manifest in our lives.”


Can you wonder how I loved her so much? And here she gives me the right to sorrow.